...everybody kept asking me the same question

'So, how was your first week?'

Honestly, I don't know. Really! I have no clue at all how to answer it. I just got a new job and just finished the first week - how am I supposed to know if it went well or not? I didn't drop anybody, didn't make anyone cry, didn't cause permanent damage to anyone... So I guess it didn't go too bad? Did I have the time of my life? No, not really. I was working and work isn't supposed to be fun.

Okay, to be honest I do like working as a physio. It can be a lot of fun if you're lucky. You get to play games with patients, have them jump through hoops for you (both literally and metaphorically) and it can be very rewarding when you see your patients improve. When you see a patient, who couldn't even sit up straight at first, take their first steps on their own, it feels like winning a race. But I've just started and as J.W.Goethe once said: 'Aller anfang ist schwer'. He said it about the economy but whatever, still works.

To be completely honest, my first week was exhausting. I had some good days, some bad days but every single day ended with me passing out on my bed, half dead from the day. For someone like me, who despises people and is happiest in an isolated den in the middle of nowhere, working with people all day is like running the marathon every single day. Also, I still feel like I have no idea what I'm doing with these people. Sure, I haven't hurt anyone but... am I actually doing this therapy thing right? How would I know? How does everyone else know? How come it seems so easy and natural when my co-workers do it? 

So in short: I feel dazed and confused and I have a hard time believing I'm actually a professional physiotherapist now. I don't feel like a professional. I feel like I'm stuck in one of those stupid comedies where two (almost) identical people trade places and have to live each other's lives. Did I accidentally trade places with a real physiotherapist without noticing? If so, what do I do now? Should I just roll with it or throw my arms up and go 'Yup, you got me! I might look like a physio but actually I'm... uh... a former psychology student?'. When you put it like that I might as well go with option A). Maybe in time I will actually metamorphose into a physiotherapist like a beautiful, slightly sadistic and freakishly fit butterfly....